TGI MF F!

i am beyond glad that friday is here. this presents the best chance i have to get some things done around the house and try to focus on storing some energy for the next work week. i looked up some information on the internet about kidney disorders and the like, and i was pleased to find that (although i do not technically have a disorder) the fatigue i'm experiencing is very common and almost expected. i suppose it makes sense when you really think about it, one of my vital organs was on a siesta for almost two months and now i'm asking it to kick back into gear and tolerate my daily activities. oh well, i've overcome worse.

i've definitely felt more vulnerable these past several weeks, not sure exactly why. it's similar to meditation and how you need to find your balance or everything feels a little compromised. my balance has been favoring gravity lately more than anything so quite a bit feels heavy. rumedial tasks have become a little less graceful and seem to be taking quite a bit more focus.

the doctor said that our brain is like a muscle, exercised daily, sometimes at ridiculous intervals (i suppose it depends on what you're doing). in that respect, he speaks of how we can mentally exhaust ourselves in the same fashion we physically expend our energy in a marathon, or if you're like me... during a routine walk around the neighborhood. apparently it takes significantly more to replenish the psychological than it does the physiological. of course there's always the element of sleep stages and how one treats the physical energy or lack thereof, and the other tends to our medula oblongata. well, that is of course if we're sleeping correctly in the first place... perhaps that has more to do with what's going on with me than anything else, seriously. a time will come where i have restful sleep on a regular basis but for now the idea seems outside of reach.

didn't notice the time, have to bail before i'm late for work...