simple wish...

just once i wish my wife would know what it feels like to spend any length of time with our son and sense that he may not appreciate her. BJ is too young to possibly know or understand his actions but i am struggling in the worst way with the fact that our time together is NOwhere near as free-spirited and natural as it is with my wife... four letter words come to mind, not necessarily limited to the obvious but certainly not with exclusivity either.