no sense in complaining

there's no real sense in bitching about my pain right now b/c there are so many others in much more pain than this on a regular basis, some of which i met in the hospital. i finally came home yesterday after my 4th stint in the ER, and i'm obviously hoping its my last for quite awhile. i definitely hope its the last for my kidneys.
i spent most of the day sleeping but managed to get out the ol' gamecube and play some toadstool tour golf. i forgot how much fun it used to be when my wife and i played that game together so i hope those days aren't too far in the future again, under different circumstances of course.
BJ will be old and big enough to play the video games in about a year or so. right now he just likes to pull on the cords and get in the way of the tv. i don't usually do anything with games when he's around anyway b/c my full attention is on him so i found this out the hard way the other day.
i'm not driving anywhere b/c the meds are just too much so my transportation is limited to public methods at this point. this isn't any big deal though b/c i'm still not all that mobile.
besides, GR has a big public transit system in place and hundreds/thousands of people ride the rapids every day. it might also help me get a little ahead of the game w/ gas prices the way they are.
my h-mate still owes my money to get my bills up to snuff but he promised that most of the score would be even today. i really need him to come through b/c i just don't have anymore wiggle room before my credit completely suffers. i've already faced three shut off notices and made it through but there's another one of the docket and needs to be settled before 5 today.

all this talk about money is making me hungry. seems strange but i guess it's stressful so it gets my stomach going into different gears. that's good b/c my family left some food on their last visit and i have enough to make a decent lunch.

i read about 7 people who were arrested in miami yesterday, in what's alleged to be the largest terrorist conspiracy since 9/11. apparently the Sears Tower was their next target. i think of things like this and it brings two things to mind - the fact that we have some real sick bastards in this society, and that doesn't even just mean mentally. the other recurring feeling is we are closer to an apocalypse everyday when somebody dreams up this type of vengeance, bread from nothing more than likely hatred and revenge. it's a sad place if that's what some of america has amounted to these days.

that's it... i'm hungry.

my media player is spinning all kinds of great hits from the 90s.
better than ezra
chalk farM
toad the wet sprocket
*live*
blessid union of souls
the new radicals

choice material... dig it!