tested patience

my housemate found a way at almost the last minute to get our water bill paid so for now i don't have that concern any longer. now, i must however graduate to a more serious concern - my mortgage. you see, i have direct withdrawal and it's already in motion for july so i can't cancel it for next month according to the bank. i hardly doubt my housemate will come through again given the fact it was so hard for him to scrape up $60, my suspicion is that he can't come up with hundreds more by next week. i don't know quite how to feel about that situation. i know it's not personal but so much of me feels like it's unacceptable and my heart needs to stop always dictating my life because i seem to find myself in these trying circumstances quite frequently. he owes me what i consider to be a significant sum of money, mostly so we can pay a mutual friend for all the maintenance he did to my house to make it possible for my housemate to move in earlier this year. while i'm on medical leave it's hard to say what my pay schedule will look like because it takes forever for metlife to process my paperwork. it's quite a fix i find myself in this time and all because i wanted to help somebody who now finds himself in a position of desparation himself. it doesn't make me want to change my mind about lending a hand because i think this guy is great and a very close friend but i definitely need to re-evaluate putting myself in this type of predicament any time again in the near future.
yesterday was especially a painful day. i kept having lower back spasms, caused by the internal damage to my kidney and urethra to remove the prior stones. i'm not supposed to be in this much pain still so it's a little annoying but there's not much else i can do besides take the darvocet, ciproflexin, and flomax they prescribed for the condition at hand.
i woke up in pain this morning as well so hopefully that's not indicative of what lies ahead today. i did get a call from my doctor's office this morning that i'm able to sneak in for my appointment tomorrow instead of friday since somebody had to cancel at the last minute. that much is good news at least. hopefully they can make quick order of my paperwork for work so i can get that claim processed and make what little money they owe me.
i listened to a lot of old ben folds five albums yesterday to reinstill some laughter to my day, which was much needed at this point. you just have to love ben and his whimsical way of blending piano with falsetto about some of life's most interesting conundrums.
ben actually has five new songs on the "over the edge" soundtrack of all places. i'm excited to see what comes of these new efforts but i'm obviously going to have to wait to find out until i can get the budget straightened out and upon my return to work.
besides that i saw several commercials for the new dashboard confessional record yesterday. i guess the band is going to be all over the tube today to promote the new record so maybe i'll be able to catch a performance or two on vh1 or an evening talk show.
if so, i'll return with some form of a review very soon...