long enough...

OK, so it's been awhile... i haven't really seen any good reason to utilize my blog. writing was so therapeutic before but it became rather daunting and painful. i suppose a certain element of therapy is meeting pain face to face but it also takes an honest heart, willing to stand in front of the adversity and not flinch. i've had days where that felt possible but more of them where hiding behind the smoke seemed more like the educated choice. anway, life rolls on and i miss my ex wife immensely. my son is the epicenter of my life, stealing glances that seem like they would last a lifetime, making it unecessary to fuel my soul with anything else but his presence.
he's awfully close to walking unassisted... still frankenstein steps, with arms stretched out and calculated his every step. it's a matter of time before i'm chasing after him, i'm sure.
my friends have continued to be a major blessing unto me, all of which i am extremely thankful. God has a way of using people to heal the wounded and sick, in addition to having others there to share in goals achieved and extreme jubilation. although it hasn't felt like there's been much of the latter, my friends always find a way to keep me encouraged and i love them for that.
our men's group has continued driving through the likes of miller's BLUE LIKE JAZZ with gazelle intensity. i love the way miller writes, short and accessible. his words are quite simply a perfect homage to the cliche' of saying more with less. i'm still working on that, as you can see.

perhaps more will come in the not so distant future. i don't know who reads this anymore so it often feels like i have this online vehicle simply to archive my stream(s) of consciousness. on second thought, maybe that' s enough reason in and of itself.

a long overdue visit to one of my closest friends took place in recent weeks and that could very well be another entry real soon. suffice to say it's definitely worthy of one, and then some.

lastly, i'm digging on some CDs that i pulled out of my archives the past few months... if time permits, you'd be wise to check out the following:

cool hand luke - fires of life
sleeping at last - ghosts
lyndsay diaries - midwestern
copeland - in motion

be well and kind to each other.